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Jay Chou!!! ~MuAcKs~
Families gathering at the floating platform, couples hugging each other watching fireworks, children enjoying themselves watching those fighter planes fly past their windows... Me? Can't help but wondering are men born to make women cry in pain? WHAT A TOPIC TO THINK ABOUT!? Hai! Totally CMI!! The only pH hols i have after 2 years in my nursing line & it makes me felt so alone...so depressed. Should have gone back to work... Money is the only thing that can make me feel secure now.. Promises, sweet talks seemed so distant.. nothing interest me now, i can afford to lose anything ... Come what may attitude! But i do admit.. i'm such a loser in love life! Arghz! I give up! Wanted this & that.. at the end? Neglected the basic needs to be happy! Can't recall when is the last time i can truly rely on someone to give me happiness. Giving in, making so much efforts = blogging here with such terrible thoughts in mind. Memories haunt me every nite.. True enough, time washes away pain but can it remove scars too? Ha! Do i really have to force myself to change into someone cold... just to seek happiness? Such despair thoughts Jennifer! Sleeping & escaping the reality of life is wad i could think of now... Leaving everything to fate, not bothering.. simple hack care! Pushing things too hrd can only make things worst ya? I've gotta let it go... leaving things just as it is.
I'm Jennifer... not love's slave~
[loved you`] at 8:33 PM
Monday, August 04, 2008 Recently, many things seems to fall in orderly manner.. may expected things are happening, life is still full of surprises. Distance between J & me seems to be getting further, is it really common & insignificant? It matters alot to me though.. i just wanna settle down.. lol.. but it just seems so distant.. so impossible. I guess it's time to move on.. twirling in circles, trying to figure out solutions after solutions will never work... Yup.. i guess no turning back now... i'm forced to move on... gotta move on~ i remembered once dad said to me... "dun hope... it will only disappoint u at the end..." i'm learning dad... dun hope.. dun expect... tat's the only way to survive.. to feel happy, satisfied~
Mind's empty now.. dun dare to think of anything else except for work, study.... dying to get my driving licence asap... LOL! finally... new car's on the way! Mom's gonna get my fav car... Honda Jazz! Eventually... the only ones tat's gonna stay by urside it's still ur family... Juz love them... Mom.. dad... & of coz my darling snowy~ once mom & dad was laughing so loudly in the living room over some silly shows.. i laughed too.. although i'm not watching... but tat kind of warmth knowing tat ur parents are happy & enjoying themselves.. makes me felt happy for them too. =) There's no place like home...
I've tried... & i'm tired... Just wanna be happy & move on... dun wanna hope.. dun wanna dream... just let fate decide... i believe someday...someone will be there... be with me. Miricles do happen when u just believe...
