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Jay Chou!!! ~MuAcKs~
Has been really jinxed to the core recently... not only i'm having bad luck... i even jinx J too.. totally unbelievable! Even riding in his car can cause his tires to rupture~ =.=" LOL, seriously has J ever regreted knowing me? Ever asked him before... glad that he said "nope" (haha..is it true?) Anyway, thing hasn't been going smoothly too.. many rough edges between us... trying hard to understand guy's thinking on their mind?! Can be rather frustrating sometimes... Grr! Y must guys always act so cool... calm... keeping their probs to themselves always?! Haiz! WHY!!!??? Isn't it better to talk it out? 2 brains better than 1 rite? o.O So many misunderstandings.. so many probs.. do u think we can last J? (Hah..he dosen't like it when i call him tat)...Do u think i care? (His fav phrase too, kinda miss it though..) Solutions..solutions..solutions... brain storming everyday! Moto for Jennifer in 2008 --- > To be (always) happy, cheerful! Die die cannot be moody... J's got the seclusion mode switched on whenever he's unhappy... so i gotta be happy! Neg + Pos = +ve ya?! Kekeke =P But hor... LOL (contridiction starts... ) sometimes really cannot tahan him leh!! So mood swing, like PMS loh! Wahahah.... but i do admit.. he can really make my day or he can crashed & totally destroy it! Really a tyrant King! Miss ya J!
So suay till i sprained my foot while climbing up the darn stairs... grr... somemore gotta work loh.. haiz! Luckily got bear bear hug & my fav drink!! Coffee bean--- mocha ice blended! (So heng didn't puke, stomach still feels alittle upset though-- stupid lactulose intolerant thingy!) Bur it's from J--- hee! Tasted so so sweet! Will update again soon... gtg back to work!! Ciao~
[loved you`] at 8:22 AM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008 Life after life without Tyrant Jason ( Part 2)
Problems not solved yet... i felt like as though i'm not trying at all.. no solutions, this is the first time in my entire life, i'm stuck... without any plan C or D to back me up. it felt liek as though i'm not moving, not making any effort to find a solution... ha! ha! the biggest joke of all is... I HAVE NO SOLUTION?! Blank... empty.... zero! Going bonkers soon... laughing & joking, cheering everyone up in the day, screaming, crying, hiding in my bedroom at night... nv expect anyone to solve my probs or to cheer me up... just hope to see J's smile, hear his cheerful voice, sweet smses from him... but nil... nothing at all..
I admit defeat... pronounced dead in J's hands. I give up totally, he's important to me and i admit it. So much so that, his happiness, sadness and all his probs seems to be like my own... i just wan someone to understand me... its sufficient even if J's gonna keep quiet, all i need is just to lean my head on his shoulders.. he doesen't need to utter a word.. silent.. zip... i love to communicate with him using my heart.. "heart to heart talk"
Sometimes i wonder, if he ever caught me secretly staring at him... i'm just trying to capture a few more images of him & keep it in my mind.. coz after each meeting, i really have no idea when's the next time we're going to meet again... i'm afraid to ask him out... to deprive him from his own time & his feedom. Well... no point thinking so much now, i might not even get to see him anymore.... Jennifer's gonna solve her probs now... no one's gonna help you! Wake up!! Phone diverted... smses not replied... Jennifer's gonna be alone...
