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Jay Chou!!! ~MuAcKs~
Tuesday, June 17, 2008 Time flies, 1 semster of my Bachelor of nursing is gone... there goes my 6k. It felt like as though i have just started the course...as though i have just celebrated my birthday =) I remembered, i started this course at the month of my birthday.. at that moment it's like a dream come true, i've always wanted to study and to upgrade myself , i love to play and have fun (who dosen't ya?) but i promised myself... at the sametime i want to be a smart girl.. play hard & play smart. Geez... time really flies, i'm half a year older in school & of coz my age too! Just completed my sem 1 exam yesterday, the paper was really hard though... hated open ended essay questions with no right or wrong answers... each weigh about 30-40 marks each! It's really tedious.. arghz! Haiz, how i wish someone can really share my happiness with me (for completing my 1st sem), its really not easy.. work like a cow in hospital & gotta study like a dog in school.... contributing to the animal farm... my bf called me piggy... (well thanks alot!!)
Back in school today, it's been like 2 months since i've last seen my classmates.... (the few old gals that we used to hang about during our NYP time), the first question was like "Hey i think u have lost weight" --- HA! HA! HA! U'll never know how wonderful it felt after hearing those comments!! (OMG... it was like....WOW!) But... the 2nd question was... haiz! They asked about James.. when will he be coming out & are we still seeing each other.... i guess it's been like a long time since i have last updated them. The only 2 words i've said was..... It's Over~ i kept quiet all the way thereafter... trying hard to change the sour atmosphere they tried to switch topics... (they're really nice) nevertheless...they made me smile...at least~ Keke!
Everything's starting anew now... new advancement in my career (so far so good), new advancement to sem 2 of my degree course (hopefully---praying hard not to waste another 6k to repeat!), living a life now at home without any maid... doing housework. I spent like 23 years of my life with a maid to help out at hm... now it's like a sudden lost... 2 months ago i remembered i broke down & cried after watching David Tao's concert with my best pal outside Kallang indoor stadium.. i couldn't cope, just couldn't cope at all! Mummy was like devastated, daddy was so helpless and everyone was like putting all the responsiblity on my shoulders... so many things happened at the same time... i'm really lost~ Thank god for giving me such a strong faith in believing that miracles will happen if i believe... only through determinations and strong will, no matter how bad things turns out to be... i'm able to cope! Lucky me... i've got the optimistic inheritance from daddy~
Well... trying to take things lightly now... although sometimes at night when everyone's asleep, that's the time when all the painful memories haunts me... trying to say i think too much? Cultivating bad habits like not sleeping at night? Well... even the sleep clinic couldn't help me much except for prescribing me tons & tons of sleeping tablets & muscle relaxants. I know, the day i'm able to let go.... it's the day i can sleep soundly at night. Many a times i've tried to open up myself.. sharing my thoughts with someone close... but i guess before i could speak out, my silence simply made the other party wanna end the conversation... LOL~ Hmmm... it's better to keep things to myself i think... =) I guess i'm still happy... happy with the things that i've got now... happy with my life (though it's quite hard to walk sometimes)... once in awhile just let me release my accumulated agony within me... i suppose i will be fine with it~
Ahem... it's like 1 am now.. gotta wake up early tml... let's end here. (",)
