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~*~ Life's different... trying to view it in an optimistic way! ~*~
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"Wo Zhi Dao, ZoNg YoU Yi TiAn... HuI YoU ReN DoNg De ZhEn Xi~!"
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Jay Chou!!! ~MuAcKs~
Saturday, May 03, 2008 2 long months have passed.. OMG~ seems like 20 years ago i've last seen my bf. Things dosen't seems rite now, So many things had happened, my surrounding seems blurry.. i'm losing my way or rather i'm already lost... Sometimes i sat alone thinking is it because i'm lonely? I miss him? or i don't know what i actually wanted... i don't dare to think.. keeping myself fully occupied, sometimes i feel like as though i'm like an NS man.. Chiong! Chiong! Chiong! does nothing but Chiong.. LOL~ Smoking more then usual.. indulge in alcohol now, hoping someday there's a drink which can numb all my pain. Requesting long working hours... going to school to study study study! Ha... seriously i don't know how i managed to survive, sleeping less than 10 hours every week.. i can't slp, dun wanna slp... everytime i closes my eyes.. i'm so helpless! All my stresses & my bf's face is suffocating me.. i can't breathe.... I used to cry everyday.. misses him so much... thinking that i really missed him so much...then y did i stop crying now? Where have all the tears gone? Have i reached my limit? Do i really miss him or i'm just not used to life without him...
