Wednesday, June 04, 2008
I'm beginning to feel the stress and exhaustion recently.. No matter how hard my road can be, i have never ever had this kind of feelings before. I'm seriously disturbed by all those ridiculous thoughts that keep flashing across my mind, used to think tat life will be different without "the special person" in my life. I'm damn wrong.. so so wrong. The ups & downs of life still existed, friends, love still comes in & out of my life... When i finally felt the sweetness in life, that kind of wonderful feeling will be gone next. Crying and sharing with people is something that i've stopped doing... I'm tired of repeating the same kind of stories over & over again, can't even remember when is the last time i really cried. No doubt, intermittently... i still shed a few drops of tears when i'm alone. The only time when i felt quiet and safe is when i'm sitting alone at my fav place under my blk.. hard to explain the serenity i felt.. listening to my ipod, smoking and staring at the blue blue sky. At tat moment, i m able to pull myself out of the stresses of life and travel into another dimension... my own world. Darn... sounded really emo now! LOL... its a blog yea? Suppose to share the inner thoughts... still trying trying... trying real hard...
[loved you`]
at 5:36 AM
