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Jay Chou!!! ~MuAcKs~
Saturday, June 21, 2008 Life without Tyrant Jason (The Beginning)
It's been 2 hours since we have last spoken... although it seems short, it's the beginning of a long winter without a fireplace, without tyrant J. I can never forget how he introduced himself to me on our first day... Ha ha! J sounded like a pervertic, disgusting old man tat wanted to flirt with young girls... seriously, i was kinda turned off @ that moment, i'm actually speechless... Luckily, it was a fake.. wad a nice & unforgetable way of an introduction.. that's how i've got hooked... the sweetest smses and a caring and soothing voice that really melts my heart.. Of coz, beautiful things never last.. here i am now, talking to myself and my blog all alone. It hurts deeply till only 2 drops of tears came down after my last sms for him. The only comforting moment was the thought of me (the pain) getting off his ass, not creating more stresses, giving him his personal space that i have been trying to invade for the past month. I have thought of many many ways.. what can i do to get J's attention? How can i make him happier and what else i can do to improve myself? Many nights at the void deck spending hrs down below... i've finally realised last night! J needs his breathing space.. Jennifer is the reason for all the unhappiness. I did something today that broke my heart.. the first time Jennifer lied to J.... to find a reason to leave... Haiz! It's gonna be uncomfortable with J by my side... giving me his "royal speech", a piece of mind... all the "Bull shits!" What i am suppose to do? I'm left with 2 choices.. it's either i continue to fight or i flight... instead of pulling him together into the agony pond, i rather drown alone.. Love's just so amazing.... sometimes loving someone dosen't mean that u gotta have tat person by urside 24/7, its.... is he happy? It's really not easy to understand a person well.. so far, i only know tat J needs his personal space (huge personal space) and i'm someone who needs lots of care & attention... so, the question is y make 2 persons suffer when its better for just 1 to be? I've nothing left in memory of him.. only his pics in friendster and this song........ click -->http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E5yLJ0rWSIA
