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Jay Chou!!! ~MuAcKs~
Sunday, June 29, 2008 Life after life without tyrant Jason...
Time really flies.. 6 days had past since i've last written in this blog. Time passes so fast when i'm with J... the first 2 days without J, everyday felt like years... tears, agony and regrets... i'm glad that J didn't let me suffer for more than 3 days... glad that we're back together now...
Within just 6 days... more things happened... more stresses and things that i can't explain... things are moving so quickly that i can hardly breathe. To my surprise, i'm doing things that i cannot explain and simply unimaginable... should i say after so many incidents, i did not learn my mistakes or i'm willing to take the risk of going through another roller coaster ride? I should say, love is something that i will take my entire life & beyond to understand. It's too complex to use words to describe .. simply amazing... unfortunately, falling in & out of love too many times, i'm starting to feel........ afraid. But every serious relationships that i've been through... i 've never fail to give them 101% of my love... is it because of this reason, i got myself into all these pain? Y is it that guys falls out of love so easily? Do they feel the same pain that we gals go through??! I'm really curious.. if i ever get the chance, i would love to be a guy for once...
Being alone... i've learnt that i can trust noone except for myself... only i can protect myself from harm... i'm safe being alone. Till once... i felt safe & warm in J's arms... it's kinda difficult to explain that kind of warmth, for that moment... all my worries seems to be gone... time stops... i'm tired.. so so tired.. i just wanna stop thinking, stop deciding! I just love to heed advise from J everytime... i just wanna be a "small" woman (direct translation from mandrin), it's so fortunate to find someone that you can rely on... that is if this kind of feeling's gonna last... (ha, sound so pessimistic) Hmmm... finishing my night shift soon... last night!!!!! So happy!! I miss J so much.. don't know when we will meet up again... =.=
Haiz... can't believe i spent more den 3 hours trying to complete this blog... grrr... so many "kepos" and distraction in my workplace... =P
