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Thursday, September 27, 2007 Gosh.. things surrounding me are really moving fast.. relationships, friendships even families are being split-up everyday... Quite sad to say, these are the way things are gonna be even 20 centuries down the road. Recently 2 of my gd frens broke up with their bfs.. looking @ the way they are know reminds me of myself many months back.. tears, losing weight, the dark eye rings & feeling lost.. Haiz~ Felt so concerned, worried...wanted so much to tell them i'll be there for them juz like they were for me in the past.. As usual, i dunno how to console them, i'm not a very expressive person.
Today went KTV with my frens, i can feel tat she is not happy eventhough she's smiling most of the time. (is taurus ppl always like this?!) I asked whether wad kind of relationship she is hoping for.. her answer was "tian chang di jiu" (meaning long-term - forever type of relationsip). In this case, i found out tat we have different concepts of BGR. Wad she is looking for is "tian chang di jiu" & wad i want is "chen jing yong you" I treasure the moments tat we had more den wads the ending. I'm not sure y but it's juz me..~ I did some self reflection recently.. i do admit tat i may be childish, naive thinking & most of the time i will do stuffs tat really make my parent worry. I'm not sure y i hv such a serious attitude problem.. i felt tat all i want its juz the experience, i wanna live my life to the fullest.. no matter wad sacrifices, how hard the road's gonna be... I'll take it! At least.. when the day i close my eyes.. i can tell myself "Hey, i've tried it all, it's time to leave this world~"
Well, i dunno... maybe u guys thing i've not grown up yet.. i agree... but my concept stays for now.. i dunno abt the future (real stubborn character) o.O"
Spoken to "him" few days ago in msn & afew thru sms.. well, he's still the same.. our concept too differs... but 1 thing for sure.. i've let go~ (dunno whether it's a gd sign or not?) Tat kind of passion... no longer existed. It's juz the memories tat r on my mind rite now.. dunno hether he's happy or not..(he better be~ it's wad he's looking for by breaking up), if not all my sacrifices will be wasted!!!! ARGH! (kidding nah) >.< Anyway.. i've learnt to take things easy now... all thanks to my past experiences... i learnt many many things! Thanks alot all my exssssssssssssss!!! U guys shown me not only these stuffs...its the WORLD! KeKE... Gtgler... niteyppl~
[loved you`] at 12:13 AM
Thursday, September 13, 2007 Life's kinda different now...
Within such short period of time so many things happened, my job, my life & my relationship was affected.. Lolz.. i dunno y but there's a lucky star tat is always up above looking after me. Yesterday had an arguement with my bf.. i sat silently at the place where we started our relationship. Staring at the sky asking whether will we meet again? Show me a sign, let me see him if we are meant to be together.. time passed to almost an hour later he appeared. My prince appeared, but not on a horse, not a car... but on a bicycle o.O. Haiz... at least we met, i could never forget the expressions on his face when he saw me.. tat kind of relief, happiness & longing to hug me look... Yesterday was a long nite, eventhough i spent only a few hrs there, it seems like hrs & hrs has passed.. spoken to afew of our frens & finally i'm back with my bf again.
Something tat one of my fren said brought me back to my past memories.. He asked my bf "Why do u wanna change?" The ans from my bf was fast " I wanna change for her" Tat's when i saw my past. I'm not changing for anyone but myself. He i walking the path tat i've walked in the past.. I agree, everyone made mistakes, it all depends on whether the other party wans to give the other party another chance or not. I'm dying for my last chance in the past, but i was not given..
6 mths... tat "someone" is still on my mind... thinking abt our past makes me wanna laugh & cry at the same time. For me, it dosen't matter whether are we gonna be back together again or not... he left, he took away everything, but there's something which he can never ever take away from me...Memories~ The memories of us will always be there... reminding me..giving me strength to carry on. It's ok if he dun return.. at least we once together, enjoying our moments.
Now we fly our separate ways, being loved by another... still wishing him all the best, hope he's got wad he wans.. happiness....
