{{*JeNnIFer's BlOg*}} ~~*=~ I *LoVe* U.. Life without ~~JSCK~~ Its never the same ~*~

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Do look kinda silly nowadays...on & off relapse of painful memories. Dunno why ppl say tat memories r beautiful in a way.. to me, it depends on how individual view it. Sat quietly on my kitchen floor last nite, holding a bowl of noodles... eating happily & suddenly images of him flashed across my mind. Trying hard to occupy myself with work work work...never have i been so hardworking in my life, requesting for more shifts, working payless OTs. LOLZ... but there r still moments when my mind gets to think of him... Well, really hard to describe the kind of feeling i have for him now.. the pain, love, hate & strangling times are over... only left with 3 drops of tears tat i shed for him last nite. Doing wad my heart tells me to its a taboo for me now! Not letting my emotions run over me...driving me crazy,suffocating me. I must be rationale...the way i m acting in the past is like a little girl, longing for love..longing for someone to lean on... where i thot i found 1, i started falling...hurt myself real deep. Den i realised the only person i can rely on is myself. Always hv to learn my lesson the hard and painful way... There is no clever or stupidity in love..only willingly or not. Tats y, i believe wad i hv done in the past for him....no point bringing it up. He will return, if he truly understands the real meaning behind this story... Sacrifical is necessary to survive in this world.. it differes only in each human being is tat whom u will like to sacrifice... True, cruel world we are living in.. sad to say, its now den i hv the courage to face it. Jennifer has to grow up... no longer living in the warmth of my parent's love... I hv learnt to protect myself...

~Things tat's not beneficial 4 our good upbringing...it's not worth to keep it in mind. ~

[loved you`]
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